Originally Posted By sherrytodd I went to the doctor today, because I just haven't fealt good lately and am having troubles sleeping. I'm tired and don't want to do anything and even when I do go out and do things, I don't really enjoy them. I can't concentrate at work and I feel like noone really likes me. She said that I'm showing signs of major depression and told me to call a psychologist that she recomends to get her opinion and that they may put me on medication. So I finally got up the nerve to call this psychologist only to find out that she doesn't take my insurance. I don't remember the last time I cried, but tonight I just can't stop. I just always feel like I'm saying or doing the wrong things and that I can't seem to get anything right. All I want to do right now is get my son, hop in the car and just drive away from everyone, but I suppose that really isn't an option. The sad thing is, that I have no one to even talk about this to. I told my husband and I think he is mad at me.
Originally Posted By trekkeruss Does your city have any help line you can call? At least then you'll have someone to talk to. Sending good thoughts your way.
Originally Posted By friendofdd Depression is a medical condition that can be treated. Call your insurance company tomorrow and find out what DR will accept their coverage. And trekkeruss is right about finding a hot line for somebody to talk to.
Originally Posted By Kar2oonMan I'm no doctor, but it sure sounds like depression to me. I'm sure there is another psychologist/psychiatrist out there that would be covered by your insurance. Not sure where you live, but here's a place to start looking to find some help: <a href="http://locator.apahelpcenter.org/" target="_blank">http://locator.apahelpcenter.o rg/</a> It's no laughing matter, nothing to be ashamed of, nothing to ignore. But good help is available for sure!
Originally Posted By Kar2oonMan And if it feels more like an emergency situation: <a href="http://help.apa.org/faq_question.cfm?AskAbout=0060" target="_blank">http://help.apa.org/faq_questi on.cfm?AskAbout=0060</a>
Originally Posted By TALL Disney Guy sherrytodd, have you ever heard of Lucinda Bassett's program "Attacking Anxiety and Depression"? <a href="http://www.stresscenter.com/lucinda.htm" target="_blank">http://www.stresscenter.com/lu cinda.htm</a> I don't know if this is a one-time thing for you or if you experience anxiety or depression often, but she has stuff about this on TV and the radio a lot. Might be somethin' to look into if you can't work out an insurance/doctor thing.
Originally Posted By TALL Disney Guy <I'm no doctor, but it sure sounds like depression to me.> I'm no doctor either, and while I agree with 2oony, it also sounds like some anxiety to me too.
Originally Posted By chickendumpling Oh sherrytodd. (((((((((((hugs)))))))))))) We're here. I wish I knew what to say other than we're here for you. But tomorrow is a new day and I'm sure there is a good psychologist out there who WILL take your insurance. Hang in there honey. There is help out there I'm sure of it. I am so sorry you are having these feelings right now. I know that its not something you can just "snap" out of though and you are so right and so brave to get professional help. love and hugs, chickendumpling aka chickieD aka Chicky*D* aka chickyD aka cd aka MissDumpling aka LadyDumpling aka ChickenDumbling (courtesy BigThunder) aka ChickenDumbpling (courtesy PlainoLJoe) aka... I know there are more but I forget them now.
Originally Posted By chickendumpling Man my computer is slow! When I started typing this there were NO other posts on this thread. love ya sherrytodd and I am hope someone on LP can put a teeny little smile on your face tonight. *hugs*
Originally Posted By LuLu I'm sorry to hear this, sweetie. Do find a doc on your plan and I hope you feel better soon! ((((((hugs))))))
Originally Posted By DlandJB Dittos here, my dear. Remember that depression is a clinical, medical condition. It isn't just a bad or sad mood -- it has to do with a chemical imbalance in the brain. You didn't cause it, you can't just snap out of it. Be careful of what they prescribe for you and if you feel worse because of anything they give you, get back to the doctor and ask for a change. Medicine is indeed and "art" and the treaments are not "one size fits all." You will get through this and know you have friends here to help you through too.
Originally Posted By DlandJB Sherry, you might want to ask your doctor to give you a complete medical workup too. It occurs to me that some other medical conditions, like thyroid related conditions, diabetes, hypoglicemia...can all have an effect on the mood too. It wouldn't hurt to have a thyroid and blood sugar check.
Originally Posted By JazzCat Oh sweetie, I'm so sorry. Both CJ and I take Zoloft for our depression. Our family doctor put us on it, so I'm really surprised your doctor didn't write you a prescription then and there. (And yes, those are classic signs of depression.)
Originally Posted By mele I'm sorry, sherry! I've suffered from depression off and on my whole life. I've also come up with thousands of excuses to avoid treating my depression. Just know that things definitely CAN get better! I've spent half of the day bawling (and had a therapy appt. today) so I know how that feels too. I'm here if you need someone to email with. Sending hugs your way.
Originally Posted By Stacers76 Awee well phooey....here I was thinking I was the only one crying today ) Sherry I am sooooo sorry you're feeling the way you do, I can absolutley relate. My doc has me on a medication too....Lexapro...and it does help, but some days....NOTHING helps, and I feel exactly the same as you are right now. I agree that talking to someone (my email is in my profile if you want to!!) can help. And I would check into finding a therapist that your insurance would cover...it's worth it. Even my, lovely, *snicker grin barf* (I like my job, really) workplace has a employee assistance line (mostly because they know they make us looney!) we can use..and it was scary and embarrassing at first to talk to a stranger, but afterwards it really does feel like a weight is lifted and you'll never see the person who listened. Good luck and I'm sending relaxing disney-filled thoughts and hugs your way!!!
Originally Posted By EdisYoda Sherry, I second what everyone is saying. My mom is currently suffering from depression triggered by the loss of her Sister (and best friend) and her job last year. Find treatment at first from a psychologist (and I agree, call your insurance company to find one that takes your insurance). A psychologist can't prescribe medications, but if you end up going to a psychiatrist, he/she can. Also it takes time for medications to take effect (several weeks), so don't give up. Also don't be afraid to ask your doctor to change the type if it doesn't seem to be working. My mom has had to do this a couple of times until she found the one that is right for her. Good luck and hugs.
Originally Posted By Autopia Deb Hang in there honey. I'm sure your insurance provider will help you find someone who's on your plan. Make sure you take some sort of steps tomorrow and don't put it off.
Originally Posted By trailsend sherry, I'm so sad for you. This is so hard and something, as you have read, EVEYONE goes through! I'm not sure of your age, but hormone changes, too much estrogen or depleting estrogen, not enough serotonin in the brain, perimenopause can wreak complete havoc with all you've known before which now is turned upside down. This makes you feel as if you don't know yourself and creates a feeling of panic, disorder, and low self esteem. It is absolutely nothing to be ashamed of or fearful of ~ just find your way to kick it in the butt now! Here is a website with some info that might help you too. I've made a shorter link, so give it a second or two to connect. <a href="http://makeashorterlink.com/?M1652494D" target="_blank">http://makeashorterlink.com/?M 1652494D</a>
Originally Posted By sherrytodd Thank you everyone. I'm feeling a little more together this morning, but I'm really tired. I sat up most of the night and just thought and thought and thought. DlandJB I am hypothyroid, but I'm on synthroid and just had my levels checked an they are normal. I have got one raging headache right now. The doctor who saw me yesterday is my girl stuff doctor, so I'm going to make an appointment with my General Practician Dr. today and go talk to him and get a referal from him to a psychologist. I think he was a little suspect the last time I saw him for the problems I've been having with headaches, but I kept insisting that nothing else was wrong and that everything was fine. The sad thing is, is that when I wrote this last night, the thought going through my mind was that, no one cares and that no one will respond and then what are you going to do? Just the fact that I know there are people who care is making me feel a little better today. Great, now I'm crying again. =p
Originally Posted By DVC_dad Oh so sad and sorry to hear about your situation. There is also another possibility...you could be suffering from sleep apnea, not the kind that you get when you snore, but systemic sleep apnea. Basically you hold your breath a lot while sleeping and you aren't even aware that you do it. I used to suffer from it myself and it can bring about all sorts of bad mojo stuff. Heart attack, stroke, not to mention that depression and fatigue are almost always along for the ride when left untreated. This is only one SMALL possibility, but you might suggest it to your doc. It took 4 years for me to get the diagnosis and it chaged my life. The more probable thing is simply depression which you should seek MEDICAL help for first. Stay away from the quacks and chiropractors on this one, more than likely they cannot help you, other than draining your medical benefits from your insurance, so see a professional with an MD behind their name first. Keep us updated and you will be in my prayers! Things WILL get better, you have got to believe that.
